Im the fucking idiot!
i said that i wasnt, but i am.
i literally had the sweetest heart standing in my eye sight but shot her down multiple times with my jagged edges.
i never deserved such kindness from her anyways. she was too giving and too gracious for someone like me.
i do this every time.
i manage to fuck up something that could have been wonderful… i blame the constant influences in my past. they taught me to rage, they taught me how to be mean, they taught me a fucked up life.
as much as i have mastered most parts of myself, i cant seem to master anyone getting close.
i dont know how.